best week ever. supposedly

"we're just ordinary people"

no heat vision, no levitation, no super strength.

we're just people who live our lives like everyone else. we try our best to make things better. we do stuff to better ourselves and those around us. we make due with what we're given. however, sometimes things don't go our way. sometimes our "best" isn't enough. sometimes you try to do the right thing, but it just backfires. whatever. we're then only left with two options: mope around or get up and keep moving. we rise and we fall, but thats life. there would be no upsides to life without the downsides. though it may suck, the little mishaps that happen to us is what makes life worth living. who would want to live a perfect life? never getting hurt, never losing anything. that'd be real boring. the obstacles in life that we encounter are the most exciting things. being able to handle yourself. it's not that easy to predict what will happen in the future, how things will turn out. all you can do is prepare. prepare to deal with choices and consequences. sometimes it seems like its too much to handle. sometimes we get overwhelmed with everything that we just want to break down and burst into tears. there are always people there to comfort you. the people who are available to talk. the people who would, to the best of their abilities, help you through your situation.

having gone through so much in the past few weeks/months, i've learned to not be afraid to let out your emotions. holding them in is just like suppressing a ticking time bomb. it'll explode eventually. instead, if you have to cry, then cry. then, wipe your eyes clear and rise above the situation.

as the semester begins to wind down, we can feel the pressure increasing. we can see where we stand regarding our academics and we know where we need to be. at the same time, there are other things that have grabbed our attention. it's easy to put things off 'til later, but sooner or later, we're going to have to set our priorities straight.

do work.

hunger-induced irritation.

"when you've done something right, people won't notice that you've done anything at all"

you try to do the right thing, and go about it without boasting. without seeking recognition. not expecting any type of prestige. but once you've made one small mistake, everyone makes it their business.

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while at work today, i was told the funniest thing

"keep a hold on your parents"

as if i had absolute control over them.

totally dude!

sorry for not having my own parents on a leash. i wasn't raised to tell them what to do.

its funny how spoiled children act. you can spot them easily while they're young, always whining to their parents until they get what they want. you'd think they they would change their attitudes as they grew up and matured, but ironically, it just changes into different, more advanced forms of being bratty. they now whine about not being able to go out with friends, getting a new car, a new phone, even whining about lack of attention. if they don't get the attention they want, they will make their own attention, even if it means being loud and obnoxious.

then there is the infamous "keep your parents in check" attitude. it is easy for a spoiled child to tell their parents what to do since, quite frankly, they've been doing it all their lives. but to children with more... traditional upbringings, we would be out of place, since we were conditioned to treat elders with respect.

-rant over-

scratch that last note~

sometimes people (and even friends) judge you based on situations that you are not able to control. you have no way of manipulating what will happen, but you do your best to make it better. still it doesn't make it better, and you become an asshole because of it. its all your fault this happened. its all your fault that occurred. and even when they have nothing to do with the matter (and that they're not even involved) they still have their input.
i've always said "i hate generalizing," classifying a group of people into a certain category. but, previously, i generalized. i generalized the very notion of "friend". sometimes they are NOT always there for you. sometimes you can't count on them. sometimes no one is there to support you. at these times all you have is yourself. yourself and your family.
im not saying "friends are useless, dont have them," im just saying that sometimes, not ALL of them can have the same notion of friendship.

then there is the concept of "sell out"

"One who betrays a cause for personal advancement."  

(according to urbandictionary.com)

this phrase is tossed around a lot, and is usually used to describe people and their actions.
and apparently, im one too. but not for "personal advancement"..i guess?
so. i lied. the truth came out one way or another, and it came out worse than expected. ok, i can deal with that.
but does "selling out" also include telling the truth to higher authorities who hold significant power that can affect your future?
if so, then. dam im all sold out. hmm
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its kind of strange how people act in certain situations. they can be your best friends, then after an event, they can resent you. then what made us act like friends in the first place? were we even friends? or just simple acquaintances.  

so. this sounds kind of emo.  so. i pulled a bitch move. get over it.  let's do what actual friends do and support each other in times of hardship.  

if not, get out of my way and let me solve my problems myself.  

friends.

people who are there for you.

people who won't leave your side.

people who will take care of you.

people who are always there to talk.

people who you can count on.

people who are willing to sacrifice.

people who you can tell everything.

people who can make you laugh.

people who can change your life.  

may seem cheesy, but its funny how the people you see everyday can make the biggest impact on your life.  the very people who you just met a few months ago can be the biggest influences in your life.  you never realize it at first, but eventually it becomes clear who your friends are.

you don't pick your friends, 

fate does.  

dance with the devil.

Dance with the devil - Immortal Technique

since i haven't listened to it in a while, 

i decided to listen to 

immortal technique's "dance with the devil."

every time i hear this song it always gives me goosebumps

it's one of those songs that really makes you appreciate the life choices you've made and the people who've influenced you through out life.  

sometimes we don't always make the best decisions, but we can always fix what we've messed up.  

"so when the devil wants to dance with you, you better say never

because the dance with the devil might last you forever"

its funny how stuff today always encourages us to do our "dance."  and once we've had a taste, we always seem to want more.  it always enters our life in ways that we won't notice right away, but, for some reason, we are always welcoming of it.  

there's no way of avoiding our encounters with "said evils" but we can always make the right choices.  

deep

for the love birds

i love you

three simple words that can mean a lot.  

it can start wars, it can start relationships.  it can even end relationships, and possibly friendships.  its such a powerful phrase that should be used with caution.  

we say it to tell our significant other that we "love them."

but why bother say it if you don't mean it?  people now-a-days tend to say it a lot, but what's the point.  sure, there's nothing wrong with expressing your love to your boyfriend/girlfriend, husband/wife, but what's the point if you have to constantly remind them that you love them?  

saying "i love you" after every sentence seems kind of tacky.  

repeated use of "i love you" often lessens its value, people tossing the phrase around like it's nothing.  sometimes the rationale is "what everyone else says it, so i'll say it too." 

there are many definition's of love, and some people often misinterpret it.  

when you say "i love chocolate," is that the same as saying "i love you" ?  how can you love chocolate the same as a person?  

the misuse of the term can lead to false pretenses among young people today, leading to hollow relationships surrounded by infatuation.  

the meaning of love has changed from what it used to be, and now it can mean a whole variety of things.  people actually in love have their own meaning.  

i found, that the best way to view love in action is in one way: through your family and friends.  

(i guess thats two..)

they're the ones who will always be there for you.  who will love you unconditionally.  never judging you, and are there to guide you and support you.  

love is something not simply defined, 

but it just is.  

we grow up so fast..

so. spring break is over. after a week of xbox, going to the gym, burbank, eagle rock, glendale.  i must say, my first spring break of college was pretty laid back, which compliments my laziness perfectly.  

(sorry wasn't able to go to pomona)

over the break, i somehow ended up on youtube, looking for all my favorite childhood cartoons.  swat kats, mighty max, bobby's world, eek the cat, gargoyles, street sharks, biker mice from mars, darkwing duck. im sure there's more, but thats all i can think of right now.  cartoons back then were more entertaining compared to today's standards.  

stuff today has yet to reach the level of "badassness" of the 90's. 

time goes so fast that you rarely have time to enjoy it.  you're always going here, running there. sometimes we just need to stop and smell the roses.  as a child, we always enjoyed everything. we were grateful for every little detail, we had no preferences.  

on a side note:

im looking at a box of cigarettes, and on the side it says "quitting smoking now greatly reduces serious risks to your health. "  isn't it ironic that cigarettes are the only things that, if used properly, will result in health risks?  but yet, people don't seem to mind.